convicted

This sunday I felt convicted. I thought about going to church in the morning but in relaying in my mind what my church expirence would be like I could not bring myself to get off my couch. Instead I watched a bit of amnesty International and some of world vision. although these major organizations have their faults within, I felt more at peace watching them than being at church. I don't want to be a cafeniated christian. I don't want to get up on Sunday morning get my nice clothes on drive to church listen to ethics (usually not about Jesus) grab a coffee and make polite small talk with people that I wouldn't dream of sharing my imost secrets with. I don't want to give my money to building projects and sing worship songs that only talk about my expirence of worship and nothing about Jesus. I feel done, and frustrated. I can't watch my money be spent on leather couches and powerpoint equipment when first hand expirence has shown me that their are starving, needy people in my city. Pregnant mothers who have no where to turn and will inevatably repeat this cycle because their world is so small and can't break the cycle themselves. I won't cater to a church that instead of including the world puts more comfortable bubble wrap in their inner sanctuary. Alienating themselves and others in their pursuit of comfort and entertainment. I'm sorry for this long rant but I am not sure what to do next. I'd really like to be a part of a church that would make a huge daycare (equal size or larger than the church) that was subsidized for young struggling families in calgary. I just feel like we are one to the wealthiest cities in the country and our churches show no regard for the fatherless, widow, poor and hungry. The social gospel. Tell me your thoughts, and please pray for me that this cynicism would spur action and not complacency.

posted by ash @ 3:14 PM Comments: 9